I'm tired of waking up feeling like crap every morning - trying to force myself to have hope for the day - by the time night comes I'm racking my brain in front of the computer researching what my purpose should be
I always feel like what I have isn't enough and that I need to be doing more like volunteering
but i realized last night that I'm not giving my current life 100%

my theory
love is the meaning of life - life is about wanting love, finding love, growing love, losing love, & rejoining love after death
I want to grow the love between me and my family so we will be rejoined after death