i wonder how i even get by at work i can't even think - i sit and stare and thats enough for me - my god just typing that is pathetic. i bumped up to 100mg Lamictal on Dec 28 so its been almost a month and i'm really not seeing the benefit. I'm still slightly dizzy ALL the time - so much so that its normal
I hate how i have my thoughts and then within those thoughts i have this tiny bit of rational thought - the tiny rational voice says getting sickly thin, a new job, plastic surgery wont really make you happy - while my regular thoughts all say oh yes they will if you get there everything will be better - and since the rational thought is basically a whisper on bad days especially i tend to not hear it at all
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