my Lamictal was upped to 125mg on Monday and so far no side effects other than the insomnia which if anyone's been on a ton of different meds knows that 1 slightly annoying side effect is worth tolerating. Since last Thursday I've gone from 134 to 128 - i'm sure the first 3 lbs were all water weight
I've been under 1200 calories everyday - i'm not doing anything super low like i used to aka 500 - i've been trying to go to the gym everyday too - i honestly feel less hungry after working out and that has been great since i usually blow my cals at night
I actually think i'm starting to feel a little better on the higher dose - dont want to jinx it tho - i think i will actually get down to my GW since i'm not desperate for it
before I was in such a hurry to get to my LW that I ended up blowing it - right now I almost fit into all of my sz 2 work pants and all of the sz 4s are big so every lb after I fit in all my pants will just be a benefit

sometimes i think i obsess over my disorder so i dont have to think about anything else - i think that is how it was with k at work - i put all my focus and energy into hating her, not being able to even hear her voice with out obsessive thoughts about her all day - but now she isn't working here anymore and once i started it has been so easy just to shift my thoughts to something else - of course that something else is my eating disorder but at least so far its just restrictive and not slipping back into b/p
i honestly have no desire to purge even if i get full - but i'm not sure if i'll feel differently aka the same as i used too now that this obsession is back