My eating disorder started and then about a year later I was really depressed and I'm not sure if my eating disorder is what caused that depression. I went to the pdoc to get medication for my depression. As my eating disorder continued I found myself wanting medication to reduce my appetite and was able to get a diagnosis of ADD and several medications (adderall, straterra, dexedrine) each promised to kill my appetite but none of them did. My mental health declined and I felt just plain crazy - I couldn't escape my thoughts. I wonder if I made my mental health worse with my eating disorder.
Headaches make me feel crazy - they fog my thinking - thankfully this blog is just a place for me to type the way I think - scattered jumbled incomplete
I have always wanted to write or blog but I just don't have the ability to set the scene and create context. My writing in my opinion is just very factual not creative
Lamictal increasing to 75mg on Wednesday - by Nov 30th I'll be up to 100mg and I really hope to feel stabilized - until then I'm going to hit up the gym and try and keep hope
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