Tomorrow I increase my Lamictal to 50mg - I'm really excited to feel the effects of this medication but it wont be until the end of the month until I get to 100mg and probably feel the full effect. Today was a really stressful day at work and also a bad emotional day. I ended up crying a little at my desk out of frustration and as always it felt so good - I do love me a good ugly cry but I have to save those for home. I try to think about how I feel but I feel so flat. My head is really fuzzy and its too much effort to even try and think of something to write about or art to create.
The art that I like to create the most is icons/avatars. I made these alot when I was deep in my eating disorder but I think it was more that I had something to say when I made those. Now I have no idea what I stand for or what messages I want to get out there.
Alot of what I had created I don't want to put out there so my portfolio is going to have to be rebuilt- my work is here:http://lettersthatdefineus.deviantart.com
I named my portfolio "Letters That Define Us" as a nod to struggles with mental illness. Its hard not to feel defined by the labels of a diagnosis. my letters are MDD, AADD, GAD, ED and alot of the time I really do feel like they define me
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