Saturday

Its been 1 week since I re-joined the gym and i'm not sure if its the Lamictal helping with my motivation or just how new it feels to be going but I'm finding it really easy to get up and go.

I'm finding that the down time I have is causing me to fall back on my habits and coping mechanisms (overeating)

In:
Almond Milk (40)
Protein Shake (160)
Toast & Mushroom Burger (210)
triscuits (225)
Tortilla (70), pb and j (100)
goldfish crackers (50)
coffee (15)
Toast (100)
Honey (120)
Sun Chips (300)
Yogurt (180)
peanut butter (200)
fluff (80)
Crunch bars (180)
Toast w butter (150)
Popcorn (240)
total 2350


Out:
30 min Ellipticle
Kick

I've joined the gym and gained a sense of community but in my down time I still feel like I'm missing something. This always happens to me - the novelty wears off as soon as I realize that the activity/job/hobby isn't going to fill the hole. and I know that it wasn't going to. just like I knew with my eating disorder that I would never reach my goal weight because I knew that reaching that number wouldn't change anything.